Blog 9: Modernity Spectatorship Power

Awkwardness in the DC
Open scene with crowded dining commons.
Pan camera through tables of laughing groups of friends eating tasty food.
The groups are dressed in bright colors. Zoom on background of small table with only me seated at it. My clothes are cold colors, signifying unpleasantness. They are “the norm”; happy groups of people eating with friends. It seems a cheery scene until the focus is put on “the other. “
Once in a while, a brightly lit person will cast a disapproving look back towards me, insinuating with their eyes.
My food looks bland and I keep a scowl on my face. I eat it quickly, not stopping to fully chew my food, rushing to remove myself from the situation.
Camera follows me as I get up to leave. People glance at me with wonder at leaving already; they have just begun to eat.
The hallway to the dish return seems to go on forever; my steps appear to be in place rather than moving. Lighting is dark, menacing.
Eventually I reach the dish return, my dish is the first one to go on it.
I reach for a desert, cringing at knowing how bad it is for me to do so.
I find my way to the couches, once again smiling people in the background take up the view.
Before I have sat down, the desert is gone, and I rush to the dish return again.
I get to the front door of the dining commons, my face brightens. The color of my clothes becomes more vibrant, I seem happy. The camera pans up as I set off into the sunny day.