Modernity Spectatorship Power

A time when I feel the gaze is when I am forced to speak in front of a class. It is not so much that I am embarrassed or nervous about speaking, but rather people seeing me be nervous or to mess up while talking. If nobody was paying attention, which generally nobody is, I would feel much better about speaking, but it is because I can feel their gaze, or imagined gaze, that makes me uncomfortable. It is selfish and vain to think that people care, but I can't help feeling nervous about what people think about me when I stand in front of a lot of people. I have always felt like an observer, but when I am forced to speak in front of others it forces to me to be participatory, and as the author described I feel highlighted as an individual instead part of the group.